CKR: You know, as a kid growing up, you're looking out into the world, you're seeing, well, I can't really see myself behind a desk, I can't really see myself doing a regular nine to five job.

TDM: What should we know about your family and you as a kid growing up? Were you in trouble like other kids, how was school for you?

CKR: Wow, that's really personal. I was like every other kid. I was absolutely normal. There, can we move on?

TDM: Sure.

CKR: Over the last six years, I mean, there's been huge, and I've been fortunate and there's been huge ups and downs, and it's learning to take, okay, there are moments of inspiration that you really completely behind it and you're serving, you know, say, Bruce Mcdonald in a piece. And other times you're working and it's bad and you're struggling like a bastard through some thing that you're just - it's tough. So it's, you know, and I always thought it was gonna go just real smooth and everything was gonna be just super super cool the whole time, and it's not. Bruce Mcdonald: He is somebody that the camera really loves. He has, I think, what a true kind of movie star has, it's a kind of undefined presence. It's just, he's got it. You get more attention, and you feel like there's a certain type of pressure that you, or idea that you have to live up to, which is sometimes very wrong. That recovery is a process that I still work through today, so I mean, it's, it's tough, in regard of going, oh yeah, okay, well I'll just lock in and think about that for awhile, and if I think or lock in too hard, then I'm (sound effect), I'm gone.

TDM: And you have to work at not drinking, at not being back there?

CKR: Yeah, I have to on it, and I didn't realise I did because I'd been working so hard I was able to avoid it, uh, the process. And only just in the last four months I've taken that on as a part of me being - you know, 'cause I thought, well, okay, I've just made a choice and through circumstance, I won't participate in that, but it became so dicey over the last little while that I went, I really need to focus on that almost as much as I had been on my, the work. Because it was getting cloudy. I think I would have self-destructed if I hadn't, if I kept avoiding it. 'Cause I was avoiding it, 'cause I knew it would work, I knew somewhere it would work, but I wasn't sure why.

TDM: How are you in love scenes?

CKR: I'm not in, I don't get to do that many. I don't know what that's all about. Uh... two maybe? I'm good at it, I think.

TDM: Really?

CKR: Oh yeah, fuck - oop (laughs), "oh yeah, f- ". Like in Last Night, there was a lot of laying on top of other women, and, and, and... not *other* women, not like I'm a woman, but - that made no sense. On other women, you know, and you have to - it's a bit tricky 'cause you're trying to respect what's, you know, them, and the scene, and the, stuff, and you know. If I get excited, I apologise, if I don't get excited, I apologise.

TDM: Do you think you're on the edge of something?

CKR: NO.

TDM: You think the world will just forget about you tomorrow if you didn't -

CKR: Uh... if I didn't do these interviews? I've been working on trying not to be dissatisfied. That's, to try to be, to... feel as fortunate as I've been allowed to have some of the things that I wanted, and appreciate it while it's going on and appreciate the moment, like working on The Last Stop. You move through time, and, you know, you're getting that kind of "need the kid" feeling, you go, I need that sort settle- there's a certain kind of settling down that comes with time that you didn't think was gonna come up, and you know, like you didn't think you were actually gonna like classical music on the radio when you're driving, but you do. And you like the jazz station, and you start sort of going, hmm, maybe I should find a little cabin somewhere. (Laughs) You know, that kind of thing.